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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 09:42

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She wouldn,t have been !

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

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Especially a lifetime of it.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She found it foreign!.

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My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

She was in good health!

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Comes on , in middle age.

When she asked me how she looked .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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I write beautiful poetry .

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

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I could never make a relationship work though!

But ive been too sick for many years..

I will be 64.

How is it, in the USA, a country with 334 million people, the choice of President comes down to two aged men, one of whom is a liar as well as a criminal, one who appears to be on his way to dementia. Surely a democratic country can put up better?

Im dying but, im not bitter.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Who writes and reads novels nowadays?

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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We all went to grammer schools

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

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I have no regrets .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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I was scared of men, in general

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

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He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But, we were locked up after school.

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Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

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As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

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Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Ive learnt so much.

Who then, do I blame.?

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I never cut or harmed myself..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I said to her

I know ,a lot about trauma.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I think the readers, may guess!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

She married twice! .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I couldn’t, believe it.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

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What did i know ?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

This is soul school!.

Im still living with it.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

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He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I don,t even have a pension.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I was 9 years of age.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

One cannot live in the past .

So whats the point in blame.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Why did i forgive my father ?

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I was seconnd youngest,

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I was very sick at this time too.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Put me off passion for life!!

I waited trembling.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

And i lived it daily.

We were not on the streets..

All the time i was locked up.

My family never makes their pension either.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But it wasn’t much.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She loved him until the end.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

My life is so biszare .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

It was going to be , some day.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

So, i spoilt her more .

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Would this be the day?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He knew the spot.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.