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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 10:21

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Put me off passion for life!!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Why do people have polyamorous relationships?

And who doesn’t know suffering?

What did i know ?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

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I was very sick at this time too.

Who then, do I blame.?

Why did i forgive my father ?

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

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She married twice! .

But it wasn’t much.

I have no regrets .

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Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

So whats the point in blame.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

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Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

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The only rule us 5 kids had .

I think the readers, may guess!

(And it was in our own minds.)

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He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

One cannot live in the past .

But ive been too sick for many years..

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I know ,a lot about trauma.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

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Ive learnt so much.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

How did you get to be a leftist?

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

It was going to be , some day.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

He knew the spot.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

This is soul school!.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

But, we were locked up after school.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Was to survive, this bastard.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

My life is so biszare .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I couldn’t, believe it.

We were not on the streets..

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Would this be the day?

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I said to her

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

She loved him until the end.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I never cut or harmed myself..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She was in good health!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My family never makes their pension either.

I don,t even have a pension.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Especially a lifetime of it.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Comes on , in middle age.

When she asked me how she looked .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

And i lived it daily.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I was seconnd youngest,

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

She found it foreign!.

She wouldn,t have been !

I could never make a relationship work though!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I write beautiful poetry .

I will be 64.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I was 9 years of age.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

As i do to all so called friends.?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We all went to grammer schools

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Where the ultimate outsiders.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I was scared of men, in general

They are buried together, in the same grave..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

All the time i was locked up.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Im still living with it.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He resisted the act ,that day.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

So, i spoilt her more .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I waited trembling.